i'm the worst blogger!

Since my last post I have been a mess. Not in an eating kind of way.. but my body is just on the fritz.

Here's a modified version of what is going on (and maybe someone out there has something insight into all of this because I am at my wits end):

Within the last 6 months I have gained 20 pounds(!!!!!!!!!). Some of that weight I can account for because it was cold and snowy and I spent all of my free time on the couch nibbling on garbage... but 20 pounds..??? come on, something is up... I just don't feel like ME. I'm tired and sluggish all the time which has left me being cranky and irritable. It's just not me.

Anyways..

Fast forward to my last post.. I was all geared up for this challenge with some other bloggies and I had everything set to go (meals planned.. gym dates scheduled..new music uploaded onto the ipod for my cardio) and since I had another week before the challenge was scheduled to begin, I started early. I started to watch what I was eating and killed it in the gym. A few days later I noticed that I just wasn't budging from the scale.. in fact, it was going up. WTF?? Now, I always get a little bit of TOM bloat but I felt (and still feel) horrible.

Then TOM came.. and he has never left. This has been a little over 2 weeks. The first week was just like every other TOM-week.. but last week was like "enough already! please stop!" So, I called the DR and made an appointment for this week because he doesn't want to change my BC pills until they do a sonogram. :sigh:

I also made an appointment for a physical with my primary doctor because I should really get some blood work done and see if there is an underlying issue that is attributing to my sudden and drastic weight gain. (thyroid issues run in my family and last time I went to the doctor he told me I was 'borderline' to having an issue) I go Thursday. If there isn't an issue (which I really hope there isn't) then I know what I have to do.

So that's whats up. I'm sorry to all my peeps out there that I was in the challenge with. I hope you all understand :-)

First day went FABULOUS!

Since I'm back on this thing, I spent last night laying out my meals/snacks for today. This was a super idea because I made healthy choices and didn't grab random things and run out the door.

Today turned out to be fairly ordinary.. work.. gym.. home. boring.

Anyways, the eats for today:

Breakfast: Oats with a serving of pure pumpkin (my first time trying them... kinda bland.. I need some suggestions on how to make them tastier): 2 points

that held me over until lunch.. YAY!

Lunch: turkey chili with some shredded cheddar: 7

Pre-gym snack: apple: 1

Dinner: Taco Salad (lettuce, tomatoes, 1 serving of black beans, a dollop of sour cream, and a teeny tiny spoonful of 93/7 chopped meat): 8

Total Points Used: 18/21 (allowed)

At the gym I did 30 mins on the elliptical and some abs. According to my heart rate monitor, I burned 287 calories! wohoooooo!

Thank all of you for your supportive comments from yesterday!

after taking a month long hiatus..

I am pleased to announce that starting tomorrow, I am back on point.

Over the weekend my sister told me that I look preggo.. and unfortunately, I am not. This has left me very upset and angry, so I have channeled that energy into hitting up the gym the last 2 nights. Since I had to go food shopping (went tonight!) I will be starting to eat 'cleaner' tomorrow.

It is bad enough that my own blood could say that, and embarrass me in front of others by pointing it out, but she was right. After hearing it, or admitting to myself that I let myself go, naturally I have been pretty upset and found myself crying today over it. How could someone say that? How could she pat my belly and laugh hysterically? How could she point it out to a family friend? I'm hurt, yet mad. Get me?

I'm back on track tomorrow. I love reading all of your blogs, and each of you are so inspirational, so I will be here cheering all of you on, and hopefully pick up some tips along the way. :-)

Thanks for listening to me...

This is gonna be rough, but I'm ready! FINALLY!!

I'm Carb Free!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 2 of no carbs and I feel SUPER. I will continue to do the no carb thing for the next 2 weeks, at which point I plan on heading over to Stage 2 of South Beach and graduate to more big girl foods. yay!

Luckily, I stumbled across a bunch of low-carb/south beach friendly recipes yesterday and it was a lifesaver! With the proper tools and food that isn't boring, I am on my way to eating right and getting rid of this weight!

Yesterday: Tuesday 2/24/09
Breakfast: greek yogurt with some granola
Lunch: Chopped salad with lots of veggies and some chicken
Snack: string cheese
Dinner: Mini Greek meatballs with a greek salad (all homemade!)

Today: Wednesday 2/25/09
Breakfast: eggs with cheese
Snack: SF hot chocolate
Lunch: leftover greek meatballs and greek salad
Snack: almonds
Dinner: Thai Chicken and some brussel sprouts. The recipe looks yummy.. I can only hope that it tastes as good as it sounds!

I'm happy to have found my motivation again! It feels wonderful to be back on track.

Survey!

Figured I would do a lil survey so everyone can get to know me a little better :-)

1. Can you cook? Not really, but I should get points for trying.

2. What was your dream growing up? To be a dancer on Broadway. Didn't quite make it there but won various awards and danced with famous choreographers.

3. What talent do you wish you had? to be a good cook.

4. Favorite place? Greece. That was the best. vacation. EVER.

5. Favorite vegetable? brussel sprouts. YUMMY!

6. What was the last book you read? I am currently reading "Eat Pray Love" but I just finished "New Moon".. gotta love the Twilight series!

7. What zodiac sign are you? Virgo.

8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? ears are pierced. 2 tats.

9. Worst Habit? I overanalyze everything.

10. Do we know each other outside of blogging? No.

11. What is your favorite sport? fooooootball.

12. Negative or Optimistic attitude? I'm pretty optimistic.

13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? probably talk about the weather.. I'm obsessed.

14. Worst thing to ever happen to you? that's not important for my blog. sorry.

15. Tell me one weird fact about you? I love watching cartoons in my pj's.

16. Do you have any pets? no.

17. Do you know how to do the macarena? yep

18. What time is it where you are now? 1:19pm (EST)

19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary? annoying. haha.

20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? straight hair with a toned body.

21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? conscience. I'm a good girl.

22. What color eyes do you have? brown.

23. Ever been arrested? no.

24. Favorite fictional character of all time? Monica from friends.

25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it? save it for a house.

26. If you could have one superpower, what would it be? to fly. how cool would that be?!?

27. What’s your favorite hangout? My Mom's house. she's got the pool. hehe.

28. Do you believe in ghosts? not ghosts, spirits. :-)

29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time? read, work out, shop.

30. Do you swear a lot? I'm trying to stop.

31. Biggest pet peeve? slow drivers..

32. In one word, how would you describe yourself? sweet.

33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? I just did, and I hope if your reading this you do too!

I hate dieting.

I do. It sucks. Why can't I just stuff myself with pizza and ice cream everyday and be 120 pounds? haha.

*sigh*

What do you all do out there for motivation?

A Decision Has Been Made!

Hubby and I did some talking today..

Over the weekend we booked a week-long vacation to celebrate my Mom's 50th.. so we are going to take her, her bf, and my Grams to Florida! We are all super excited, but we are all very unhappy with our current weights, so we are all starting diets TOMORROW.

Hubby is not a skinny man.. and although I can not get his tush onto a scale, he is over 250, easily. Size is not what bothers me, I worry about his health.. as his family has a lot of weight-related diseases and illnesses.

So we talked.

Weight watchers just isn't for me. I dunno. It's not that I don't want to count points or weigh my food.. it's just that I am always starving. This starving leads me to binging, which ultimately leads me to falling off and getting back to my old ways. It is so discouraging and I know myself the best and it's just not for me.

With that being said, we are going to head back to the South Beach diet. We both felt pretty good on it (not hungry, or lethargic, or ravenous) and I need to get myself off of carbs, because they have become an addiction.

Since we still have some non-SB foods in the house, Hubby will work on finishing those up here and there, but I bought only SB friendly foods today at the store, so we are on our way.. slowly.

I'm still going to keep sharing my food on here, because it really does help me stay accountable.

Thank you to everyone who has been giving me some support.. you guys are the best!